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They are just oh so cute! Hope you'll enjoy watching as much as I did :)

And again, I want to say... good thing blogging was discovered! Top 5 Reason's why I'm happy with its birth:

• A diary is supposed to be discrete. The only reader should be the writer himself but that's not how it is now. Madami nang nagkalat na mga "chismoso" , "usisero" at "paki-elamero" na kahit alam na na naka-lock yung diary mo ay pilt itong bubuksan. So what's the use of keeping it a secret?
  
• Since I don't own a diary for such a long time now, I don't have any other outlet but my BLOG :) Baka naman magka-heart problem ako ng maaga pag wala ako masabihan ng mga drama ko sa buhay. I don't want to die just because of that! Hahaha :p
  
• Here, you can choose your own privacy setting. No more breakable locks!
• I'm not that good at expressing myself, one reason why I seldom confide my troubles to others. Ang hirap kaya mag explain! At least dito makakapag-brainstorm ka pa. Hahaha :p
  
• Some pretend to listen but in actuality, they really don't care. My BLOG here doesn't have a choice but to listen to me. It doesn't have life = No pretensions.

For today's record...

1. My feelings are messed up.

2. I'm about to end a friendship that lost its spark. I don't know if that's the right thing to do. Sure I'll miss the good times we had but I don't want to pretend that everything's OK.

I'm speechless! Just try it out! =)

Your ColorGenics profile has been generated below...

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Name: Diana
Date: 11/25/2008
Colorgenics Number: 23054176

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You work hard, seeking success. You are self-sufficient and in spite of all the trials and tribulations that have beset you in the past you carry on regardless.. You are one to be admired because you pursue your objectives single-mindedly and with initiative. You know that you can 'do it' and what is more, you will - without necessarily being dependent upon the goodwill of others.

Rejection is what you fear the most and it is this fear that makes you unapproachable. You are looking for acknowledgement and above all looking for people who can appreciate you for who and what you are.

You know what you want and you are very dogmatic and demanding - especially in your emotional demands. You have specific ideas and beliefs and if these beliefs are not realised you can become extremely frustrated. You may not be that perfect but you are looking for perfection with the perfect partner.

You are an emotional, sincere and impressionable individual experiencing frustration and unnecessary stress. You vehemently resist any form of pressure from outside sources, insisting on your independence as an individual. You want to be a decision maker - to make up your own mind without interference. You wish to be able to draw your own conclusions and arrive at your own decisions. You detest uniformity and mediocrity as you want to be regarded as one who gives authoritative opinions. Your favourite expression could well be that 'I may not always be right but I am never wrong'. You're a perfectionist and even though you may feel that the other person's point of view may be right, you find it extremely difficult to admit that you could be wrong.

You need to be respected as an exceptional individual. This is the only way that you can hope to achieve the status that you wish to achieve. You set yourself very high standards - and come what may - you abide by them.

Standing in the middle of a crowd
I quietly observe
Some of them I know
A lot of them I don't

Friends, acquaintances, and strangers
Body and shadow
From a distance, I watch
From a distance, I listen

Wide smiles, I see
Joyful greetings, I hear
Then I am glad

But as I turn back
Only these I see, only these I hear
Suspicious acts and shouting whispers

- DLC

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I hate you. I hope I can say it straight to your face someday.

Kunwari pang concern pero hindi ko naman ma-feel.

Honestly, I loved the hugs and "beso" but now I just can't stand it.

You changed a lot... and I hope you know that.

P.S.
I know that it's bad to hate.
I hate you = I am a bad person.
I am bad person = I hate myself.
I hate myself = I hate you more.
and we're going in circles!

I was listening to the radio on my way home just a while ago, the program is called "Radio Negosyo". Their topic was about the definition of HAPPINESS and SUCCESS. Well, people had given their say on it and I just want to share mine here.

HAPPINESS for me is...
- When I see my patient smile back at me in spite of the physical and emotional pain that they feel in their hospital stay. It's like they're saying more than thank you and it's wonderful feeling that I cannot explain.

- Another is when I gave my snack to 3 of the street children waiting outside Pan de Manila. I just have 1 but I told them to just share it. The smile on their faces are just PRICELESS! It really made me genuinely happy because the SMILE and Contentment that they've shown me were so pure even though its just a pack of Eggnog that they still have to share.

SUCCESS...
- Reaching your goals in life.
- Being stable.
- Being HAPPY.

It's just our 1st week back to school but it's such a hassle already.

Monday, Nov. 10
We were already bombarded with much of the nursing procedures namely : NGT, catheterization, administering medications, positioning the client, wound dressing, IV therapy, administering enema, and oxygenation.

Tuesday & Wednesday, Nov. 11 & 12
We had to do a return demonstration for all the procedures discussed.

Thursday, Nov. 13
It was our first day of lectures but we were already given 2 reading assignments and a quiz next meeting. We have to read Chapters 1-3 for both Medical Surgical and Pharmacology. When I reached home, I did as I was told! It's just that I didn't have much time to finish reading Pharmacology... and because I'm too sleepy, I was not able to read my assignment for Med-Surge. Hahaha... I'm just lucky enough that the quiz for next meeting is just about Pharma's Chapter 1.

TODAY - Friday, Nov. 14
Too much note taking!!! Done with Pharma's 1st quiz = 20 items! If I'm not mistaken, I just got 2 mistakes... so far, so good... BUT STILL!!! I could have perfected that one. Not to brag but I really know the answers (because I read last night!) but it's just that they were at the tip of my tongue!!! Oh well... better luck next time.

Tomorrow will be our last day of class for this week. Another "too much note taking drama" will happen. Stay tune!


Changing topic...

I just saw a news about a terminally ill British teenager who refuses to have a heart transplant. Watch the news here.

She was diagnosed with cancer since school age. She is fighting it for too long. Now, her condition worsened causing her heart muscles to weaken. I'm just amazed that at her young age, 13, she already knows and understands about the risks involved in the operation... saying that if the gets it, " I could be worse than I am now."

If I am in her place... given that the chances of the operation succeeding is small, I'd do the same thing because I'll be most happy to do things I want to do until my last day rather than stay in the hospital where I can't do anything but wait whether I'll wake up and live or just die after the operation.