current mood: 
what a day! everything just happened so fast...
it was yesterday when i started to feel that i am an invisible woman... but then i thought that i was the only the one who felt that nobody cares so i just shut my mouth... then i found out that eva was feeling the same... same with clarissa... meaning that i'm not super sensitive to that issue...
it was just the way it was...
i felt it...
they also felt it...
then realizations hit me...
my mind goes like: "yeah! they only call you when they need you.." ..."di, hingi ng papel"... "di, anu assignments"... "di, anu kailangang gawin?"... "di, patulong naman oh.." ... and the likes...
i was just so pissed off that time when i asked him where aid is at... i asked several times and yet i got zero response...
i really felt that he's just a friend to me when he needs something...
eva, clar and i passed a note to them saying that we're sorry... though i'm not yet ready to talk to them...
and then... "tampuhan" mode was still with me this the morning...
i ignored him... and ignored kuya as well...
but then in the afternoon, my "tampo" started to fade...
since he was in the clinic, i asked eva and clar to accompany me 'cause i would like to see how he was doin... of course as a friend... i care for his condition...
then i started talking to him... though we did not officially say sorry to each other...
i just hope that things will go better now...
it was really hard for me to get angry... specially that they are my beloved friends... it's just that the devil in me wants to let all the kept feelings out... yeah... yung "tampuhan" drama...
i dunno if it's just me... or i dunno... what is important now is that, somehow we're ok na...
what a day! everything just happened so fast...
it was yesterday when i started to feel that i am an invisible woman... but then i thought that i was the only the one who felt that nobody cares so i just shut my mouth... then i found out that eva was feeling the same... same with clarissa... meaning that i'm not super sensitive to that issue...
it was just the way it was...
i felt it...
they also felt it...
then realizations hit me...
my mind goes like: "yeah! they only call you when they need you.." ..."di, hingi ng papel"... "di, anu assignments"... "di, anu kailangang gawin?"... "di, patulong naman oh.." ... and the likes...
i was just so pissed off that time when i asked him where aid is at... i asked several times and yet i got zero response...
i really felt that he's just a friend to me when he needs something...
eva, clar and i passed a note to them saying that we're sorry... though i'm not yet ready to talk to them...
and then... "tampuhan" mode was still with me this the morning...
i ignored him... and ignored kuya as well...
but then in the afternoon, my "tampo" started to fade...
since he was in the clinic, i asked eva and clar to accompany me 'cause i would like to see how he was doin... of course as a friend... i care for his condition...
then i started talking to him... though we did not officially say sorry to each other...
i just hope that things will go better now...
it was really hard for me to get angry... specially that they are my beloved friends... it's just that the devil in me wants to let all the kept feelings out... yeah... yung "tampuhan" drama...
i dunno if it's just me... or i dunno... what is important now is that, somehow we're ok na...
11/17/2006 08:14:00 PM |
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